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1928 - Alderson High School - 1968 |
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TWO WEEKS OUT |
Two weeks out from the big race that Rick Hughes I will run in Charleston, West Virginia on September 5th. All through my life when I played ball or coached , I would always get very anxious immediately before any contest. No matter how hard I had prepared and no matter how confident of prevailing in the contest at hand, I would always get very apprehensive right before the contest. Fear of failure? Fear of embarrassment? Fear of underperformance? Fear of defeat? At that moment with all of the preparation, my thoughts were if I just walked away I could not fail. Now on the back side of my competitive days my biggest fear is not failure of losing or not performing well but a fear that I won’t finish the race. Now wouldn’t it be so easy to walk away from that fear and not start the race. The anxiety and apprehension has started earlier this time. Can I look Rick Hughes in the face if I don’t finish the race? I am leafing through the yellow pages for a yoga teacher or a mediation teacher. My mind is racing out of control. The physical preparation is meaningless. This is all mental. My nerves are failing me. I am in paralysis. Is Rick having this same trepidation? No actually he is going to Las Vegas for a week at what should be the height of his training for the race. Is he marching to victory or marching to the restaurant? Surely if he and Barb are going to Las Vegas, they are going to eat and drink well. He will not have a lot of time for training. My anxiety is slowly slipping away. The stars are starting to align in my favor. But then I remember that my foe is Richard Hughes. Maybe he is going to Las Vegas to do blood doping and increase the oxygen in his blood or take steroids or have a secret meeting with Lance Armstrong to learn some secret chemicals to unlock the speed that is in his muscles. Or maybe he will go to a secret trainer that will enhance the utilization of the slow twitch muscles. My anxiety is heightening. My nerves are trembling. Rick Hughes has suckered me in again. While I am plodding along with my amateur training schedule in West Virginia, Rick Hughes is undertaking secret advanced distance training preparation in Las Vegas. My initial glee at the thought of him gorging himself in this modern day Sodom is replaced by the fear of the competitive edge that he is likely gaining in Nevada. It is 10 pm in the night. I feel compelled to go out and train in the middle of the night. To leave no stone unturned in my preparation to defeat my high school teammate and my life long friend. All of my jokes about the pebble in the shoe and untying his shoe strings have driven Rick to a competitive fury that means he will find defeat unacceptable. But I am tired. My daughter is getting married in October. Every day I work on holding my gut in so that I will be able to hold my gut in all during the wedding and reception. I will not embarrass my daughter in front of our new in laws. But the effort in holding my gut in has wore me out and I don’t know if I can stir up another ounce of energy to increase the pace of my training for the race. Two weeks out and I am in a panic. I need more time. Two weeks will not be enough to overcome “The Vegas Factor”. There is only one solution I am going to tell Rick that we are going to change the annual race to a race every two years and 2009 is an off year. |
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